Chapter 449: Wipe
I lay there with a needle in my right arm as I was given a little squishy ball to squeeze periodically. My blood was slowly being taken out of my body, and I just stared at the ceiling most of the time. Looking to the side, I find Akira lying there in the same position. It was kind of a different sensation from when Kazu-kun drank my blood.
"Natsumi-san," I called out to Kazu-kun’s aunt. "There is something I have to tell you, but..."
"Hmmm?" she raised her eyebrow. "What is it?"
"But please promise me something first," I said, looking at her. I didn’t want him to find out about this. He already has so much weighing on his mind, and if he were to know the truth about this morning, I don’t know how much I can even do to convince him to stay near me.
I cannot get that look of his out of my head. Those bloodshot eyes, both of them glowing. He was looking at me so hungrily and almost drinking all of the blood out of my body. If he hadn’t stopped when he did, I don’t know if I would have enough energy to hold him afterwards. Not to forget, he left Akira in the same state as me. His mouth was covered in our blood; he growled like an animal, and the strength he held me with. If I have to be honest, it did make me a bit scared. He got so strong out of nowhere; it was absolutely unbelievable.
"Promise what?" she asked, but I shook my head.
"No, promise me first. Only then can I tell you this," I insisted, and she let out a sigh before nodding her head.
"I promise. Now tell me what I even have promised to?"
"Don’t tell this to Kazu-kun, at least, not now," I said, making sure not to break eye contact with her. Kazu-kun is not in a state where he can be left alone even for a second. His source of nourishment is luckily not humans, but I don’t know how far he would go for vampire blood if we are not able to hold him back.
He drank too much blood for how his body should be evolving. If we were to see his age in vampire terms, I think he should be close to being a novice, and during that time, the critters slow down on their feeding, but not him. He drank enough blood that would satiate a critter for weeks in one go and fell unconscious. I don’t know what is going on with him, and it annoys me. There is so much he is not telling me still.
"Akira, when Kazu-kun first turned, how much blood did he drink from you then?" I asked her.
"He did almost drain me completely out of blood when he first converted, but after he didn’t drink much. He was always extremely self-conscious of how much he drank from me, even though I would insist he drink more. He couldn’t move much for a week after he woke me up with his blood. It took two more to even get him to properly move around. It wouldn’t have happened if he drank more of my blood," she said, looking disappointed in herself.
"Why didn’t you bring him to the VEO?" Natsumi-san asked, and Akira looked away for a second before facing us again.
"If I were to move him even once, he would beg for me to move and find Ai-sama right away. He was extremely worried about you. I knew where you were the entire time, but in the state both of you were at that time, I couldn’t have made you two see each other," she said, and I felt something tense up in me. "I am extremely sorry, but I knew the only one who would be able to stop you in that state would be Kazuki-sama, and if I were to bring you to him in that state, I don’t know how you would have taken to his form."
"What do you mean?" I asked as a horrible thought formed in my head. I don’t even know anything about how Kazu-kun was when he was saved by Akira. The last thing I saw was him swarmed by a hundred critters feeding on him. I squeezed the ball in my hand, tearing it. They hurt my Kazu-kun; they almost killed him. I will make them pay. Every single one of them.
"He..." Akira was unable to fully work out her thoughts. I feel the nervousness in her voice. I needed to calm down. This is all in the past, in the past. Yes, Kazu-kun is with me now. He is still my perfect Kazu-kun. It’s just the past. JUST THE PAST. "I don’t know how to properly explain it in words, but though his limbs grew back after he drank from me, all of them were rendered useless. All he could do all day was call out your name and move his mouth to drink from me when his instincts forced him to."
The room was left in silence. The image formed in my head, and it broke my heart just thinking about it. Kazu-kun being like that? No, I don’t think I can handle thinking about this for even another second. Stop thinking, stop thinking, stop thinking, stop thinking. This isn’t what I even started this conversation for. Get of grip on yourself, this is no time to cry.
No matter how much I yelled at myself, tears couldn’t stop flowing out of my eyes. I tried my best to hold back from crying out loud, but it felt like torture. I wanted to just jump out of my chair and give him the biggest hug I could possibly give. He never even mentioned any of this, nor was there the slightest bit of indication that something like that happened.
"I...see..." I said and wiped the tears out of my eyes, and looked back at Natsumi-san.
"Kazu-kun drank almost all of both mine and Akira’s blood this morning," I opened up about the subject, and she stood there stunned by the revelation. "Our reason for being late was because of this. He drank too much and it made him fall unconscious, which was also what was the reason for his eye colour to permanently change. I don’t know what is going on with...I try to rack my brain from my experience with dealing with vampires, but Kazu-kun doesn’t exactly follow that pattern."
"And you don’t want me to tell this to Kazuki because?" she asked, still trying to process the overload of information thrown at her.
"When he woke up, he didn’t seem to remember what had happened this morning. It was as if to him, the morning didn’t happen. He asked us why he woke up so late, and we were able to come up with an excuse, but if he finds out the truth, I don’t know how he will handle it right now," I explained.
"So how long do you want to hide this from him?" Natsumi-san asked, and I looked down. How long do I want to hide this from him? If preferable, I don’t want him to ever find out about this side of him. He doesn’t see himself that highly anyway, and no matter what he says, I can tell better than anyone just how bothered he is with these changes in his body. Only yesterday it was dropped on him that the changes would get worse, but we will be able to handle it. If he were to find out about this morning right now. I don’t know what he...I don’t know. I don’t know. UGH, why don’t I know?!
"You promised to me, Natsumi-san. I will be the one telling him about this myself. I will take full responsibility for that, but please not right now. He will not be able to take it. I’m scared he will isolate himself completely from me and Akira, and I don’t know if there is anything we will be able to say to stop him from doing that," I said, holding my heart. I know full well that if that were to happen, I won’t be able to handle myself. It’s selfish, I know, but even the thought of Kazu-kun not being near me makes me scared.
"So instead of putting him to be more conscious about his actions, you want to hide the truth from him," Natsumi-san said bluntly, and I looked down.
"Do you think he is stable enough not to make decisions like what I just mentioned?" I said, and she shook her head.
"That idiot will make that decision even when he is stable. Cutting himself off from everyone all over again," she said, and let out a sigh. "Fine, I’ll not tell him for now, but if things get any worse than this. I will not hold myself back. Kazuki is still his own human, so we can’t just make decisions like these for him."
"I understand," I said, looking down. The door opened in front of us, and Ama rushed in, looking worried.
"Tell me everything about Kazu-chan’s feeding history," she announced in the room.
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