Su Shang stiffened, her tongue lightly pressing against her jaw, her expression instantly turning incredibly somber. What she wanted was a husband?
Su Shang slowly removed Feng Zeyue's hand and said softly, "I've had a bit to drink and feel a little dizzy. Your Highness has also had a long day. Let's rest early tonight!"
After speaking, Su Shang took a quilt from the cabinet and spread it on the floor.
"You're not sleeping with me?" Feng Zeyue asked in surprise, her tone full of disbelief.
Su Shang nodded, her voice calm, "Didn't I tell Your Highness? I can't!"
Feng Zeyue: "..."
Wasn't that just a joke?
Su Shang's expression was exceptionally composed. Feng Zeyue, who firmly believed she couldn't possibly be incapable, was stunned. Could it be that her husband was truly... incapable?
Such a beautiful face, it would be a terrible waste if he couldn't perform.
Feng Zeyue felt a pang of regret. Suddenly, she remembered some of the miscellaneous books she had read in the past, her eyes brightening. She nudged Su Shang, as if making a great decision, and said,
"Even if my husband can't, I won't dislike you. But we can try other things, for example... I can be on top. I will definitely try my best to satisfy my husband."
Feng Zeyue stammered as she finished, her face burning. Before today, she would never have believed she could say such unladylike words.
Su Shang blinked in confusion, suspecting she had misheard. However, Feng Zeyue's flushed face confirmed to Su Shang that those outrageous words had indeed come from the princess in her eyes.
Su Shang sat up. "Is Your Highness serious?"
Feng Zeyue nodded, her face red.
"I'm sorry, I don't want to be on the bottom," Su Shang refused without hesitation.
Before Feng Zeyue could be disappointed, Su Shang suddenly leaned close to her ear and whispered, "If Your Highness is willing, even if I can't, I can still make Your Highness happy."
Hearing Su Shang's suggested method, Feng Zeyue was so embarrassed she couldn't face anyone. She quickly hid under the quilt and covered her head.
She mumbled vaguely, "No rush, we'll talk about it later!"
However, she barely slept that night, Su Shang's words constantly replaying in her mind.
Su Shang, on the other hand, felt unexpectedly good.
Given the princess's high status, they had to visit the Emperor and Empress in the palace early on.
The Empress smiled kindly, but Emperor Feng's face remained cold, as if he found Su Shang extremely displeasing.
Su Shang paid no mind to this and simply ignored it.
Her meticulous thoughtfulness, her beautiful appearance, and her elegant demeanor were unlike a military general's, which gradually put the Empress's worries for her daughter at ease.
When they were about to leave, the Empress gently instructed her daughter to live well with Su Shang and not to be as willful as before.
Even though she was reluctant to listen, Feng Zeyue did not show it.
Finally emerging from the palace, Su Shang let down her guard and breathed a long sigh of relief.
"Is Xingzhi so afraid of Father and Mother Emperor?" Feng Zeyue teased Su Shang intentionally.
Unexpectedly, Su Shang nodded frankly, "I am indeed a little afraid."
But it wasn't them she feared, but the oppressive atmosphere.
"Don't be afraid," Feng Zeyue took Su Shang's hand, her eyes shining astonishingly. "I'm here! I'll protect Xingzhi well."
"You, why are you so good to me?" Su Shang finally asked the question that had been bothering her.
Feng Zeyue found her question a little odd, but she still answered earnestly, "Because I like Xingzhi! I like you as a person. Of course! I also like your face, who told you to be so beautiful?"
As she spoke, Feng Zeyue couldn't help but pinch Su Shang's cheek.
Su Shang asked another foolish question, "But, what is liking? Is it like wanting a possession?"
Su Shang had seen many people and read love stories in poems, but she had never considered what it would be like if this story happened to her, because she had never thought about it.
Was liking something that could be easily given and easily taken back?
If she liked her now and was good to her, would she, when she no longer liked her, be like those discarded items, casually thrown away by someone?
Because of her words, Feng Zeyue's eyes widened in surprise. She wanted to answer with a joke, but she felt the tremor in Su Shang's fingertips.
Was she... insecure?
Feng Zeyue lost the mood for joking and answered seriously, "Liking someone means wanting to be with them all the time. When she is happy, you are also happy. When she is sad, you are also sad. You can feel all her joys and sorrows."
Seeing the clear confusion in Su Shang's eyes, Feng Zeyue sighed helplessly. Like she was talking to a child, she gently ruffled her hair.
She coaxed softly, "Don't be afraid! I'll teach you slowly from now on."
"Okay," Su Shang tightly gripped Feng Zeyue's hand, interlocking their fingers, and said earnestly, "I will be a good student and learn from you well."
As long as you don't take back your liking, I can also learn to imitate liking.
Su Shang was an excellent student. Feng Zeyue didn't get to take advantage of her much before she learned to apply it herself.
Eyes are the windows to the soul, and Su Shang was born with a pair of amorous eyes. Feng Zeyue would always find herself lost in those gentle eyes.
Even though she felt Su Shang didn't understand what love was, Feng Zeyue felt for a moment that she was loved by her.
Feng Zeyue was immersed in Su Shang's gentleness, unable to extricate herself, nor did she want to.
Feng Zeyue had received a lot of love, even if most of it was insincere. She was a child who grew up surrounded by love.
Su Shang was the opposite. She grew up in her mother's hatred. She hated others, but she also hated herself.
She tried to regain her ability to love, but she didn't know that from the moment she began to imitate love, she was destined to fail.
Su Shang began to learn to love because of a bet with her mother.
Gong Ningsi had confidently bet that Su Shang would never learn to love. Su Shang had a rebellious heart, but not the courage to rebel.
Now, Gong Ningsi had sent her the courage to rebel, so she naturally wouldn't let it go.
But the more she learned to love, the more she acted like it, and the less love she felt in her heart.
Su Shang thought dejectedly, she was truly a complete monster, just as her mother had said.
How could a monster dare to speak of love?
As Gong Ningsi wished, Su Shang admitted her failure and often stayed outside, dedicating all her thoughts to investigating the truth.
If she could uncover her past, find the truth about her father's death, and avenge him, fulfilling her mother's wish, perhaps she could finally find release.
Being infatuated with love itself and ignoring the love of others was the most foolish course of action, but at this moment, Su Shang did not understand this principle.