Chapter 238: Chapter 238
- HAZEL -
I can’t pretend to enjoy what I’m doing when I’m not. Don’t get me wrong, the whole idea of this thing was awesome and has been good so far but I thought it would help me escape my reality not bring it back to me and shove it in my face.
I wanted to have time to think and look for a way to tell my best friend the one thing that may probably ruin our friendship entirely. Then I arrived and Killian was here and I let him touch me and now I’m bummed that he’s leaving.
I’m bummed that he did not tell me. He was just going to give me the pleasure of my life then disappear without a word. Again. I don’t even know which is worse. Hearing it from his brother or not knowing at all.
I let out a sigh. Speaking of brother, I still can’t get over what Liam told me. What does he mean by I’m so innocent and young that he fears for me? What does he also mean by ‘Not everything is as they seem, innocent pumpkin. Don’t let a fragile infatuation scar you for a lifetime.’?
I let out a groan, mentally exhausted. I don’t even know if I should push further and ask him or ask his brother. I feel so lost.
I trail my eyes around the room. Everyone is involved in chatter as they tidy up. By everyone, I mean the ladies but I can’t find the men. Are they already gone? Do I not deserve some sort of conversation before their departure?
I walk away from everyone casually, looking around. I need some fresh air. I need to think. While heading to the balcony just by the room we were all in, a masculine figure comes to sight. I know that back view from anywhere. Resting on the balcony rail is Killian, doing what I think is staring at the stars or just staring ahead.
I join him. I look ahead along with him, standing by his side and leaning on the rail.
“Hello kitten.” Killian calls warmly. I don’t respond. I can tell he’s looking at me.
“Are you leaving? Tonight?” I ask, keeping my head straight forward. I’m reminded that we’re out in public and I cannot be caught being too free around him. It is for this reason why I left a good enough distance between us.
At least, even if it seems like I’m too free around him, he’s ’my boyfriend’s’ brother, that clears ninety nine percent of suspicion. Along with the fact that he’s also my professor.
Killian’s eyes are still on me. I can feel them leering on my skin without looking at him. This is when I turn my head to the side to face him. His silence confirms everything. “Were you going to tell me?” I ask, my voice still low.
“I didn’t think you cared.” He mutters.
Didn’t think I cared??! What the heck? “So you eat me out this afternoon and choose to leave without letting me know thinking I won’t care?” I raise my voice slightly, annoyed.
Killian averts his gaze backwards then at me. His warm smile is still plastered all over his face. I can tell the meaning behind his expression. I was too loud but I couldn’t control it. His reason behind it is all the more unbelievable! I let out a sigh.
“It’s charming when you say it that way. I ate you out.” He chuckles. My brow furrows. That is outside the point here but for some reason, my cheeks burn and it infuriates me all the more. “I’m sorry for not informing you, Hazel. I thought it would be less complicated for you not having me here. That’s why I chose to leave.” He admits.
I can’t even stay mad for a few seconds more. “But I did leave something for you in your room.” Killian adds. He takes a step backward from me, standing straight this time. “Something to remember me by.”
I feel my stomach clench as he winks at me.
“I promise to come back to you when everything I need to do has been dealt with. Till then, don’t have too much fun without me, kitten.” Killian says then walks away, leaving me alone on the balcony. I. . . I couldn’t get to tell him about my conversation with Liam.
Maybe I’ll do that another time. Now, I just want to gather my thoughts, clear my head and live in the moment. Whatever that may be.