Su Kangxi quickly said, "No, he doesn't know, you can rest assured."
Gu Susu prepared to close the door and said, "Then there's nothing else, please don't come to find me, go back quickly."
Su Kangxi used one hand to prop against the door, "Sister Susu, what exactly is going on? Why don't you want to stay abroad with Sijie ge, but hide in a place like this? He's very worried about you and is looking for you everywhere."
"I know, but I can't let him find me," Gu Susu said. "And about you and Yanan, she told me, and she probably doesn't want to see you either."
"That's why I came to find you after I saw her leave. I just want to know what happened between you and Sijie ge, why you're so scared when you hear his name?"
Seeing that Su Kangxi knew nothing about Yang Sijie, Susu opened the door completely and said, "Come in and sit down, would you like something to drink?"
Su Kangxi walked into their living quarters and didn't sit down immediately, but looked around.
As Susu poured him water, she pointed to Yanan's room and said, "Yanan's room is on the left, and mine is on the right."
Su Kangxi glanced at Yanan's room again before sitting down, and said with some hesitation, "How has Yanan been lately?"
"She's doing well, learning accounting online," Gu Susu said, sitting beside him.
"Well, with you by her side, I'm very relieved."
Gu Susu comforted him, "Give her some time. Even if she knows right from wrong in her heart, that person is her biological father after all."
"I understand. Even if she never forgives me, I won't blame her."
Speaking of these things, Susu couldn't help but think of her own biological father. Who was her father, and where was he? Perhaps she would never have the chance to meet him in this lifetime.
"Kangxi, I'm so happy that you haven't given up on your dream and have become a good police officer." Susu smiled happily, seeing Su Kangxi regain his usual spirit.
Hearing Susu say this, the burden in his heart seemed to lighten. He said, "Sister Susu, but I've made so many mistakes, especially letting Yanan down..."
"In your situation, it's difficult to be perfect in everything. You have your own bottom line and you've upheld justice, which is already great." Susu continued to comfort him, seeing his expression, he was carrying a very heavy psychological burden.
Susu had always felt that there was no right or wrong between Kangxi and Yanan; it was just fate playing tricks.
Kangxi lowered his head and hummed, his mood calming considerably. He said, "Then what happened between you and Sijie ge? What kind of business is he in abroad, did he hurt you?"
Susu didn't know how to explain. She looked at Kangxi with complex eyes. "He's changed too much. He's no longer the Yang Sijie from the orphanage. I don't want to be with him anymore, but he won't let go. As for what he's doing abroad, it should be in financial investment, I didn't inquire about the specifics."
"You lost your memory before going abroad, is that why you didn't contact me?" Kangxi asked again.
He also knew that feelings couldn't be forced, and Sijie ge shouldn't misunderstand such a simple principle.
But why wouldn't he let go, forcing Sister Susu to flee and hide everywhere? This was a bit too much.
Susu nodded and said, "My amnesia wasn't caused by him, but he didn't want me to recover my memory and wanted to control me with medication. His psychology is already distorted. I can't accept that he would do such selfish things in the name of love. So you can't tell him you found me, okay?"
"I understand, it's just that Sijie ge, he shouldn't be like this. He's successful and accomplished now, what else could be going wrong for him to treat you like this?" Su Kangxi truly couldn't understand.
It wasn't just Su Kangxi; in fact, Gu Susu still couldn't understand why the kind and helpful Yang Sijie she knew had become like this. The only explanation was that his experiences abroad had changed him.
"I'm not too sure either about what he went through after leaving the orphanage, but I think something must have changed him."
Su Kangxi looked at her and asked, "You hate him very much now, don't you?"
Susu was stunned for a moment and said, "I used to hate him, but now I can't bring myself to hate him. Although I know he's unscrupulous, I can't forget how he saved and helped me in the orphanage. Back then, he was like a knight in my life. Sometimes his terrifying appearance and his past good appearance alternate in my mind, and my head starts to hurt."
Su Kangxi now completely understood Susu's feelings. He also realized that there were no absolute good or bad people in the world. Even the best people had moments of evil, and even the worst people could have moments of kindness. Human nature was inherently contradictory.
After completing his undercover mission this time, wasn't he also trapped in this contradiction, unable to extricate himself?
He fell silent, unable to speak for a long time.
Susu smiled and said, "Actually, some of it is my own fault. I didn't make things clear to him at the beginning. I always only liked Qin Tianyi in my heart. But when I had a misunderstanding with Qin Tianyi, I foolishly took him as an escape."
Su Kangxi felt he had even less right to speak on matters of the heart. He could only sigh, both for Sister Susu and for himself.
Susu smiled and said to him again, "Now Yanan hates you to death, which isn't a bad thing. It shows that she loved you to the extreme before. Only extreme love leads to extreme hate, so you shouldn't be too sad."
"Then Sister Susu, you can't even bring yourself to hate Sijie ge, no, Yang Sijie, is it because you never loved him?"
Susu had completely come to terms with it and said, "I did have feelings for him before, but that kind of love wasn't romantic love; it was gratitude and friendship."
"Mhm, I understand everything now." Su Kangxi picked up his cup and took a sip of water, then got up and said, "Sister Susu, I won't disturb you any longer. There are still matters at the Lancheng police station, and I can't stay here too long. I should go back."
Susu stood up to see him out. Before parting, she couldn't help but ask, "Kangxi, in Lancheng... is Qin Tianyi doing well there?"
Su Kangxi finally understood that his earlier thought that Sister Susu and Qin Tianyi weren't suitable was just a childish idea from when he didn't understand love.
In reality, whether two people were suitable for each other and whether they were happy was something only they themselves knew, like drinking water and feeling its warmth or cold. Outsiders couldn't possibly understand.
"I haven't seen any news about him recently. However, there's something that's been widely spread in Lancheng, but I don't know if it's true or not. It's probably just a rumor."
Susu asked nervously, "What is it?"
He didn't know if he should say it, but he didn't want Sister Susu to be hurt again. He said, "The Shu family's daughter is pregnant, and it's said to be Qin Tianyi's child. She's due to give birth soon, but Qin Tianyi still hasn't married the Shu family's daughter. The rumors say... they say Qin Tianyi is a scumbag, he toyed with the Shu family's daughter's feelings and refused to take responsibility, which has made the Shu family very angry."
"Shu Yan is pregnant with Qin Tianyi's child?" Susu's heart ached as if cut by a knife. If this were true, Qin Tianyi had an unavoidable responsibility to Shu Yan, and their unfinished wedding would have to be held.