Until she reached the very bottom of the lowest drawer in his desk, she found an ordinary little notebook. Opening it, she saw it was filled with numbers and dates. At first glance, there was nothing special.
As she prepared to put the notebook back, she suddenly realized that the dates and numbers recorded on it seemed like a ledger.
When she was with Ya Nan, she had seen Ya Nan's ledger, and it was very similar to this.
And before each number, there was an English abbreviation. No, could this be a black ledger?
She quickly took out her phone and took pictures of each page recorded in the notebook, then carefully restored the notebook to its original place.
After going through the drawers, she tried to open the computer on his desk, but she couldn't get in because she entered the wrong password.
With only one chance left, she thought of the birthday they had set for themselves, which turned out to be the password.
On his computer, she quickly opened one file after another in the folders, hoping to find something valuable.
She didn't find the file she was looking for, but she accidentally saw an agreement for a kidney transplant surgery awaiting a suitable kidney donor. She stared blankly at the document, wondering who was going to have the kidney transplant surgery?
Yang Sijie? Was it because his kidneys were problematic that he was impotent?
"Miss Gu, it's time for your medicine?" a maid knocked on the study door.
She immediately closed the computer, picked up a book on the desk, and said, "Okay, come in."
The maid outside the door pushed the door open, carrying a cup of water and pills, and placed them in front of her.
She closed the book in her hand, picked up the pill, and swallowed it with the warm water in the cup.
After watching her take the pill, the maid said, "Miss Gu, it's getting late, and you should go to bed. Mr. Yang will be unhappy if he sees you staying up late when he returns."
"Okay, I know. I'll go to bed after reading a bit longer."
The maid said nothing more and withdrew from the study.
As soon as she left, Susu immediately used her fingers to induce vomiting, trying to spit out the pills she had just taken.
As long as Yang Sijie wasn't around, she would try to vomit out the pills every time she took them in front of the maids.
She successfully vomited out the medicine again tonight. She took out a few tissues to cover the vomited pills, rolled them into a ball, put them in her pocket, and planned to flush them down the toilet in her room later.
After she was forced to return to Yang Sijie's side, Yang Sijie took her to see a neurologist again. He had a brain CT scan and various other examinations. The conclusion was roughly the same as the previous consultation arranged by Huo Jin.
Yang Sijie told her that the examination results were normal, and her occasional confusion was just slight damage to her brain nerves, which would improve with medication and conditioning.
But she knew in her heart that the doctor who consulted last time had said that medication was useless for her intermittent amnesia, unless surgery was performed to repair the damaged brain nerves.
Heaven knows what medicine Yang Sijie was giving her!
She didn't believe he wanted to cure her intermittent amnesia. Taking this medicine might cause her to have permanent amnesia.
Once, she overheard part of a video call between Yang Sijie and Dr. John.
Yang Sijie asked Dr. John to perform surgery on her to repair the damaged brain nerves and simultaneously sever the nerves in her brain's memory area, causing her complete amnesia. Dr. John told him that such surgery carried great risks, and he had silently hung up at the time.
Yang Sijie had not yet allowed her to undergo such surgery, probably because he didn't want her to die.
Now he just wanted her to be a living dead person by his side. Rather than that, she might as well die.
Therefore, she had resolved to die, and even if it cost her life, she would take Yang Sijie with her.
...
Waking up the next morning, Susu opened her eyes and found Yang Sijie lying beside her. She startled and moved away, not knowing when he had returned last night.
Her movement to get up also startled Yang Sijie awake.
"The sunlight outside is still brilliant today," Yang Sijie said, turning towards the window as if he hadn't slept well.
Susu prepared to enter the bathroom and said, "You continue to sleep if you haven't rested enough. Let's reschedule with Kangxi another day."
To avoid arousing his suspicion, she maintained a nonchalant attitude towards Su Kangxi and was not eager to meet him.
Yang Sijie sat up with renewed energy and said, "Let's not change our plans. This is our first outing together since we met."
Susu entered the bathroom, thinking that she must use today's opportunity to give the ledger she had photographed to Su Kangxi, perhaps it could help him find the mole he was looking for.
She figured that the ledger probably recorded the amounts Yang Sijie bribed these people with each time.
...
In Central Park, the sun was warm. The three of them walked leisurely, stopping and starting, enjoying the scenery along the way, and chatting about past events.
It had been a long time since they had enjoyed such a leisurely time, as if they had returned to their youth.
The three of them had secretly slipped out of the orphanage to climb the馒头山 behind it.
The sky was just as blue then. They were all very enthusiastic while climbing the mountain, vowing to reach the summit in one go.
However, on the way down, only Yang Sijie was still energetic. Susu and Kangxi would constantly complain about being tired and unable to walk.
Every time this happened, Yang Sijie would carry Susu on his back and walk ahead.
Su Kangxi, crying, followed behind, shouting, "Sijie Ge, I want you to carry me too."
Yang Sijie looked back and said to him, "Susu is a girl and is weak. You are a little man, you won't be tired if you walk yourself."
Su Kangxi still felt very wronged. With snot running down his face, he walked behind, stumbling, desperately wanting Yang Sijie to carry him.
At this moment, Susu's lips touched Yang Sijie's ear and she said, "Sijie Gege, put me down, I'm not tired anymore. You should carry the little one for a while, or else his feet will get blisters when we get back, and he'll cry all night."
Yang Sijie would always put Susu down helplessly, carry Su Kangxi for a while, and complain, "I won't take you out to play again next time, you're too useless."
Su Kangxi hugged his neck with his small hands and ignored whatever he said, even falling asleep on his shoulder.
But the next time Yang Sijie and Susu sneaked out of the orphanage, he would still follow them like a little shadow. It was both funny and annoying.
They walked to a piece of azure lake. On the shimmering surface of the lake, a flock of swans was gracefully paddling.
Susu couldn't help but stop, leaning against the railing by the viewing platform, admiring the scenery. The swans in the lake would occasionally let out cries like mournful weeping.
Yang Sijie had been looking at her more than the scenery all along, feeling that she was more beautiful than any scenery.
He stood beside her, gazing at her profile, and felt a moment of daze. Was it too much to ask for her to stay by his side, forever, never to leave?
He didn't feel it was too much at all. A lifetime seemed very long, yet it was also so short.