Su Su clasped his hand, her voice soft. "You helped me see him clearly, but he was still someone I loved. Even if he and I have no further connection, I couldn't bear to see him die. In truth, I love no one now. Once you see through it all, you understand that love only brings pain."
"I'll call an ambulance to take him to the hospital and save his life, so you won't be upset," Yang Sijie said, his heart aching for her. "In this world, only I love you the most and understand you the best. I used to cry for a whole day when stray cats or dogs died."
Su Su tried her best to stop trembling. As long as Qin Tianyi was alright, that was all that mattered.
Yang Sijie made another call, ordering Mark to handle the matter personally. After hanging up, he couldn't resist saying smugly, "Alas, you're too kind. If it were me, a scumbag like myself, I'd have made sure to kill him!"
Su Su calmed herself down. She had made up her mind. As long as Qin Tianyi was safe, she would play along with Yang Sijie until the very end and ensure he was brought to justice!
Yang Sijie gently cupped her chin, his voice soft. "I am the one who loves you most in this world, the one who will never change for you. Do you remember telling me once that you would also be devoted to me?"
Su Su looked at him with a heartbroken expression and said with a wry smile, "What's the difference between you and Qin Tianyi? He disdained me, and you deceived me. You even planned to use drugs to turn Qin Tianyi into an idiot! And you dare to say you love me the most?"
If she and Yang Sijie were destined to be entangled like this, in a struggle to the death, then she would make sure Yang Sijie received the punishment he deserved, even if it cost her own life.
She wanted him to believe that she and Qin Tianyi were finished, and that she was equally disappointed in him.
Yang Sijie quickly explained, "Who told you that? Was it Sophie or Huo Jin? They don't know anything and just talk nonsense. I didn't want you to regain your memory; I wanted you to forget Qin Tianyi forever. But I wouldn't go so far as to hurt you. Back then, I was having Dr. John find a way to minimize nerve damage."
Su Su refused to listen to his sophistry. She recalled seeing Qin Tianyi in a boxing match. Where was Su Kangxi then? Had Yang Sijie discovered him too, putting him in danger?
Before she could figure things out, she couldn't proactively bring up Su Kangxi with Yang Sijie. She constantly told herself to remain calm.
Yang Sijie sensed her distraction and whispered in her ear, "Su Su, what must I do for you to believe again how much I love you? Do I have to rip my heart out and show it to you?"
Su Su sneered and poked his chest with her finger, asking, "From the moment we met again, you've been deceiving me. How can I believe you? You just need me to be by your side. Don't talk about loving me the most; it's disgusting to hear."
"Su Su, listen to me. I can explain everything to you. Some things I didn't intentionally hide from you, but I was afraid you'd leave me if you knew."
Su Su said dismissively, "We can no longer be honest with each other. What are you still talking about love for?"
"You want honesty, right? I can tell you everything. I'll tell you whatever you want to know," he said, tightly gripping her hand.
Yes, after she escaped, all he wanted was to find her and have her return to his side.
Once she was back, he didn't just want her physically; he wanted her complete heart.
Su Su didn't know how long she could continue to stall him, but she couldn't just be weak and helpless, begging him.
If he truly cared about her, then she herself was his weakness. She had to use this rationally and find evidence of his crimes as quickly as possible while he was off guard.
"Tell me whatever you want, but don't lie to me anymore."
Yang Sijie pulled her into his embrace and began to tell her the things he had never told her before.
Su Su leaned against him, listening intently, hoping to find some clues.
...
Ten days passed in a flash. Gu Su Su sat by the window of the top-floor flower room, gazing at the starry sky.
Such nights reminded her of years ago, when she used to love swinging in the garden at night at the Qin family mansion.
Qin Tianyi would always appear behind her silently and suddenly push the swing higher. Her heart would race.
Back then, she knew exactly who was behind her, but she refused to turn around or speak. Yet, in her heart, she longed for Tianyi to push her swing higher and higher.
She felt as if she could fly into the starry sky with the evening breeze...
Thinking back now, they did have quiet, beautiful moments then, but neither of them knew how to cherish them.
"The starlight is so beautiful tonight."
Someone entered the flower room, disturbing her solitude.
She didn't need to look to know who it was, and simply gave a soft hum.
Yang Sijie came to her side. Just as he was about to approach her, she immediately stood up and said, "You're back. I'm a bit tired, I'll go rest now."
Without waiting for Yang Sijie to speak, she left the flower room, leaving him with only a distant, cold silhouette.
Yang Sijie leaned against the bay window alone, loosening his tie, unsure if he was angry or frustrated by his powerlessness.
Since she had returned to his side, she had been like this, distant. It didn't matter if he was deeply in love with her or angry; she remained like still water, unwilling to forgive his past deceptions.
But he believed that as long as she stayed by his side, she would eventually understand him, comprehend him, and forgive him... He was the man who loved her the most in this world.
As long as he could see her every day and exchange a few words with her, he felt that this was a home, a place to belong.
He didn't disturb Su Su's rest further and went to his study.
When he opened his eyes, he saw the glaring sunlight streaming through the window and realized he was still asleep in his study.
He had been busy until midnight and had fallen asleep at his desk.
"Sir, would you like breakfast now?" a servant asked, gently knocking on the door.
Yang Sijie stretched his arms and asked, "Has Miss Gu woken up?"
"I just asked outside her room, and there was no response. She's probably still asleep," the servant replied through the door.
"Then don't disturb her. After I have breakfast, I'll personally bring it to her room."
The servant responded, "Understood."
He ate breakfast alone in the dining room and then took Su Su's portion to her room. He found that Su Su had already woken up, or rather, she hadn't slept at all the entire night.
"Eat some breakfast," he said, placing the breakfast on the small table in the room. He saw her leaning against the bed, lost in thought.
When she saw him carrying breakfast in, she merely said "oh," her spirit still listless, not moving.
Yang Sijie noticed her face growing increasingly haggard and her eyes looking heavy. He asked, "Didn't you sleep well last night?"
"I'm fine," Su Su replied weakly.
"If you're bored staying here, you can continue your fashion design work online..."
"I have no inspiration; I don't want to design anymore," Su Su said. The thought of Qin Tianyi being so seriously injured, and not knowing how he was after being taken to the hospital, made her heart ache. But she couldn't ask or inquire.