Yesterday morning, my wife told me that the monthly ticket ranking had slipped to third place.

As usual, I comforted her, saying it was okay, we just do our best when competing for the list.

My wife frowned, saying how could I be so unmotivated now.

Everyone in the reader group is helping you compete, yet you have this attitude.

I was silent.

Actually, I myself don't know when I became like this.

I remember a few years ago when I was writing *Terror Web Novel*, I was so lively. At that time, I could only compete for the monthly ticket ranking in the science fiction category, but I enjoyed it immensely.

I remember the average subscription for *Terror Web Novel* wasn't high, but the readers had a strong sense of cohesion and could suppress books with twice its average subscription. Back then, I was also high-spirited. Before, when I was reading novels in middle school, I would see the authors at the time asking for monthly tickets to rush the list. Hey, I could actually call on readers to rush the list myself.

I was as excited as a little Teddy bear.

Later, I started writing *Terror Broadcasting*, and I slowly became more zen. Actually, it's not really called zen, but more like I calmed down and focused on writing stories. I always felt that the year I wrote *Terror Broadcasting* was the year I made the most progress.

After that was "Hell,"

And then the current "Bookstore."

To be honest, the first half of 2018 was very tiring. I started two books without interruption, and after more than four months of the new book period, I seamlessly finished *Terror Broadcasting*. I was almost drained.

So in the months after "Bookstore" was launched, when it was most popular and most suitable for competing for the list, I was too tired to compete.

Zhou Yuan's salted fish personality is actually a portrayal of myself.

I was tired and scared, so I habitually didn't want to bother anymore.

To what extent can a person become lazy and degenerate?

On the first day of the month,

I wanted to write a passionate single chapter asking for monthly tickets, similar to the kind I saw when I was reading Xian Ni, "How dare we cultivators not fight,"

I hesitated for a long time,

It just felt awkward no matter how I wrote it,

I couldn't write it.

An old author who has written ten million words on Qidian can't write a satisfactory single chapter asking for monthly tickets.

Because now competing for the monthly ticket list,

Is actually a game of comparing who can spend more money,

A game of comparing which author is richer,

A game of comparing which book has richer patrons,

You know this is the rule in your heart,

And then you write a passionate, blood-pumping single chapter,忽悠 (hū yōu - to coax, to trick) readers to spend money on you,

I always feel so embarrassed!

So, at the end of last month, when I said in the reader group that I wanted to compete for the list, I directly said that if I wanted to compete, I had to spend money myself and send out red envelopes, otherwise I would feel bad and embarrassed to ask you for monthly tickets and support.

You treat me as a brother, I can't treat you as suckers.

This time competing for the list, I recharged more than ten thousand yuan myself on the first day!

I'm sorry,

Because I haven't competed for the list or sent out monthly ticket red envelopes for a long time,

I made a god-level operation that suffocated even myself,

On the first night,

I actually sent 100,000 yuan worth of red envelopes to QQ Reading, and the Qidian monthly ticket red envelope square didn't show it!

And then the friends at QQ Reading didn't seem very interested in receiving red envelopes...

I cried because of my own stupidity...

Compete for the list,

Then let's compete,

In terms of the base of readers, we are not much worse than others.

In terms of number of helmsmen, the thousand-person group of helmsmen is almost full.

In terms of the number of alliance leaders, we already have a hundred alliances without making a sound.

In terms of big patrons, we have 台风呼啦啦 (tái fēng hū lā lā - Typhoon Hulala) blowing.

In terms of updates, I just stayed up until now to write today's three chapters. I'll sleep for a while, get up and continue to code and explode. I'll also try to write the high C of this plot as soon as possible. If nothing else happens, it should be very cool.

I refreshed the book reviews,

I saw many people in the book review area advising me to give up, or advising me that my luck is not good this month.

Why give up,

Why give up?

Our purpose of competing for the list this month is,

You can step on us to go up,

But, sorry,

We will risk our lives,

And we have to make you bleed a little more!