Chapter 226: Confession
The silence stretched, broken only by the faint hum of the city outside. Merlin leaned forward, elbows on his knees, trying to slow his thoughts. He wasn’t used to quiet like this, not after everything. And yet, with her here, the silence wasn’t heavy. It was... grounding.
Elara’s violet eyes stayed fixed on him. He felt the weight of that gaze, steady, unshaken, until finally, finally, she broke it.
"Merlin." Her voice was softer than usual, stripped of its usual steel.
He looked up. "...What is it?"
For once, she hesitated. A pause so small it would have gone unnoticed from anyone else, but not her. Not Elara. Her fingers twisted faintly against the fabric of her sleeve, betraying a flicker of nerves.
"I will not play at riddles," she said at last. "I like you."
The words landed like an arrow, straight and true.
Merlin blinked, stunned. His chest tightened. "You...?"
She didn’t let him finish. "You do not need to decide now. I do not expect an answer tonight, or even tomorrow." Her tone was calm, deliberate, but the faint tremor in her hands betrayed her composure. "But I will not deny it any longer."
He opened his mouth, then closed it. For once in his life, words abandoned him.
Elara went on, her voice low. "If you return those feelings, you must understand, there will be consequences. I am not... simply a student. My name carries weight among the elves. Nobles, clans, politics, such things do not forgive easily. For you, it will not be simple."
Her violet eyes locked on his, searching. "And I will not let you step into that unprepared."
Merlin’s breath hitched. He wasn’t sure what he’d expected, maybe more distance, maybe silence, maybe for her to never speak the truth at all. But hearing it, hearing her say it, set his thoughts spiraling.
"Elara..." he murmured.
She shifted, as if bracing herself for rejection. But instead of words, Merlin moved. Slowly, almost hesitantly, he lifted his hand. His fingers brushed the curve of her ear—delicate, sharp, and impossibly soft beneath his touch.
Elara froze.
Her composure shattered instantly. A flush bloomed across her cheeks, and her breath caught sharp. "...M-Merlin—"
He blinked, realization hitting him. "Ah, sorry, I—"
But she didn’t pull away. She sat stiff, violet eyes wide, lips parted as though she’d forgotten how to speak.
Merlin’s thumb traced gently along the edge, marveling at the warmth, the slight twitch that betrayed her embarrassment. "So this is... what you’ve been hiding behind all that armor," he said quietly, almost teasing.
Her hands curled tightly in her lap. "It is... not proper..." Her voice wavered, the words uncharacteristically breathless.
Merlin smiled faintly, though his chest ached with how fragile she looked in that moment. "Maybe not. But I’m glad you told me."
Elara finally turned her gaze away, cheeks burning crimson. "...You infuriate me."
He chuckled softly, letting his hand fall back, though the ghost of her warmth lingered on his fingertips.
Silence filled the room again, but it was different this time, softer, warmer.
Elara pulled in a quiet breath, steadying herself. "...Think on it. Whatever answer you give... I will accept it."
Merlin studied her, his heart still racing, his thoughts a storm. He wanted to answer right then, to tell her everything clawing at his chest. But the weight of her words, the politics, the risks, the consequences, pressed heavy on his tongue.
So instead, he whispered, "Alright."
Elara finally leaned back against the couch, eyes slipping shut, as though speaking those words had drained her more than any duel.
Merlin sat beside her, the moonlight washing over them both, and for the first time in too long, he let himself feel, just feel, the fragile, dangerous, beautiful truth blooming between them.
—
The city outside dimmed further, the moon climbing higher, painting the apartment in silver. The hum of passing carriages dulled, replaced by the distant hush of wind moving through narrow streets.
Inside, the room had gone quiet. Victoria had long since retreated to her own space, humming as she arranged the groceries, leaving the two of them alone in the living room.
Merlin leaned back against the couch, exhaling slowly. His body still ached, his muscles reminding him he hadn’t fully recovered. And yet, none of that mattered. Not with Elara sitting so close, her presence filling the space like an anchor.
She hadn’t moved since her confession. Her posture remained straight, almost soldier-like, but her cheeks still held a faint, betraying warmth. Her violet eyes lingered on the moonlight filtering through the curtains.
"...You should rest," she said at last, her voice quiet but steady.
Merlin smirked faintly. "That’s my line."
Her lips pressed into the thinnest line, not quite hiding the way her ears twitched. "You always push past your limits. Even now."
"Maybe," he admitted. He tilted his head, watching her profile, the sharp line of her jaw, the way her hair shimmered like spun silver in the moonlight. "But today... I don’t mind."
She glanced at him, and for the first time that night, her expression softened into something unguarded.
Neither of them moved for a long while. The silence stretched, not heavy, but warm—like the world itself had gone still to give them this moment.
Eventually, Merlin shifted, his body sagging with fatigue. The couch was hardly comfortable, but exhaustion weighed on him. His eyes threatened to close.
"...Merlin." Elara’s voice drew him back.
"Mm?" he hummed, already halfway gone.
"You should lie down. If you fall asleep sitting like that, you’ll regret it."
He gave a tired laugh, rubbing his eyes. "Maybe. But I don’t think I can move anymore."
She hesitated, then, with a quiet sigh, shifted closer. The cushions dipped under her weight as she settled beside him. Not touching, not quite, but close enough that their shoulders brushed when he leaned back again.
Merlin’s breath caught faintly at the contact. He didn’t pull away.
Elara folded her hands in her lap, her composure wavering for the briefest moment. "...Do not misinterpret this," she said, too quickly, "but... I will stay. Tonight."
His golden eyes flicked toward her, searching her expression. But she kept her gaze forward, violet eyes fixed stubbornly on the moonlit window.
"...I don’t mind," he said softly.
Something shifted in her posture, subtle but telling.
Minutes passed. Neither spoke. Eventually, Merlin’s exhaustion dragged him down further. His head tilted, landing lightly against her shoulder.
Elara froze. Her entire body stiffened, her breath sharp in her throat.
"...Merlin," she whispered, ready to scold, then stopped. His breathing had already evened out.
Asleep.
Elara sat still for a long time, her heart hammering louder than any battlefield. Slowly, carefully, she exhaled. Her hand twitched once in her lap, then lifted, hesitant, before settling lightly against his arm.
The warmth of his presence seeped into her, chasing away the chill that had lived in her bones for years.
"...Fool," she murmured, though her lips curved faintly.
The moonlight bathed them both, silver against gold, until at last even Elara let her eyes slip closed.
And there, on the worn old couch of a small apartment, the two of them drifted into sleep, side by side, breaths steady, hearts caught in the quiet between them.
—
The first thing Merlin felt was warmth. Not the scratchy heat of battle, not the burning sting of lightning in his veins, this was softer, steadier. A warmth that didn’t bite.
He shifted, lids heavy, until the muted gold of morning light filtered through his vision. The curtains swayed faintly in the breeze from an open window, spilling sunlight across the room in thin stripes. Dust motes drifted lazily in the glow, weightless and free.
For a moment, he didn’t remember where he was. The sterile bite of the infirmary still lingered in his memory, the endless gray of the labyrinth not far behind. But then—
A faint tickle brushed his cheek.
Merlin blinked and turned his head.
Silver hair. Smooth, long, glinting like threads of moonlight even in the day. A faint lavender scent. And beneath it, a face calm in sleep, Elara’s.
Merlin froze. His breath hitched. His body stiffened instinctively, but the movement only made him more aware of their closeness.
She was leaning lightly against him, her head resting against his shoulder, their legs angled just enough to brush together. His arm had slipped down sometime in the night, draped against her side.
’...We fell asleep like this?’
Memory returned slowly. Her words. Her staying. The silence. His exhaustion pulling him under before he could stop it.
And now, this.
Merlin’s heart thudded in his chest, loud enough he swore she’d hear it if she stirred.
Carefully, painfully carefully, he tried to shift his arm, to pull back and give her space. But the moment he moved, Elara’s ears twitched, her brow furrowing faintly.
"...Merlin..." Her voice was low, blurred with sleep, the edge of it softer than he’d ever heard.
His throat tightened. "...Yeah?"
Her eyes opened slowly, violet, unfocused at first, then sharper when they landed on him. For a heartbeat, neither spoke. The silence hung thick, charged.
Then, almost imperceptibly, her cheeks colored. Just enough for the sunlight to catch it.
Merlin’s jaw tensed. "...Sorry. I didn’t—"
"You..." she cut in, her voice quiet, "were the one who fell asleep first."
He blinked. "...So it’s my fault?"
Her lips twitched, the faintest curve, but not quite a smile. "...Yes."
Merlin let out a breath, shaking his head, though his chest tightened all over again at the sight of her like this, unguarded, still tangled in the remnants of sleep, ears twitching faintly when his gaze lingered too long.
He didn’t move away. Not yet.
The silence stretched again, softer this time. He found himself memorizing the details: the way her hair spilled across his arm, the warmth where their shoulders met, the steady rhythm of her breathing as it synced unconsciously with his own.
And then, quietly, almost without thought, Merlin reached up and brushed a strand of hair from her face. His fingers grazed the tip of her ear.
Elara went rigid. Her violet eyes widened, heat flooding her cheeks in an instant.
"...You—" she started, then stopped, words catching as her ears twitched violently beneath his fingertips.
Merlin blinked, realization dawning too late. "...Sensitive?"
Her glare snapped to him, sharp, flustered, ears burning red in a way that betrayed her calm tone. "Never do that again."
Merlin’s lips quirked, despite himself. "...Noted."