The daily training exercises were strenuous, and to avoid leakage, I had to learn to use tampons, something I’d never even considered in the “real world.”
Using a tampon for the first time was simultaneously tense and stimulating, and I even failed once. The sacrifices I made for my profession were immense.
For someone as hardworking as myself, it would be an unforgivable injustice if I couldn’t become a qualified employee of the Zoldyck family business.
Speaking of which, being a woman is truly troublesome. Menstruation is troublesome, having to change sanitary products every few hours is troublesome, giving birth is troublesome, raising children is troublesome—it all impacts work too much!
To be honest, I wish I were a man.
"!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Yes, I wish I were a man, and some men… are starting to become women.
Hey, guess what I saw?!
I saw Mommy Kikyo’s beloved Illumi, wearing a beautiful little dress! Illumi, with his delicate, oval face, tilted his head innocently at me, his expression adorably blank.
Is this dress-up doll going to be unemployed now?! Am I already out of fashion?! I’m only twelve years old!
I’m clearly better looking than Illumi!
I felt the most serious insult!!
I want to throw sulfuric acid in Illumi’s face!
Damn it! Illumi, you Zoldyck intra-family competitor, are you really trying to snatch even the dress-up doll job from me?! Kikyo, do you actually prefer boys in dresses to your real daughters?!
To be born as a human, I…
“Muer!” Kikyo revealed the reason she’d called me over. “Look, isn’t Illu cute in a skirt!”
Yes, he’s very cute, so cute I want to throw sulfuric acid in his face.
“…” I nodded, my outward agreement hiding my inner turmoil.
Feminine! Pretty boy! Eternal bottom! Bah!
“Great! This is the outfit for the infiltration mission!” Kikyo praised Illumi proudly. “As expected of my Illu, more beautiful than any girl!”
Excuse me, was “more beautiful than any girl” referring to me? I feel offended.
Wait, what does “infiltration mission” mean?!
Through questioning, Kikyo informed me that the mission would be easier if undertaken by a girl, hence the decision to use Illumi.
“!!!” Did you forget I’m actually a girl? A genuine, bona fide girl!
Are you looking down on me, Muels!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You’d rather have Illumi cross-dress and risk exposing his gender than use me, a real girl. Clearly, I’m not as good as Illumi in your eyes.
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I’m going to put thumbtacks in Illumi’s little dress shoes!
I’m going to pour paint on Illumi’s little skirt!
I’m going to throw sulfuric acid in Illumi’s face!
I couldn’t help but ask Kikyo why she wasn’t letting me go.
“This mission isn’t quite suitable for you,” Kikyo said.
“…” Why isn’t it suitable! Am I not a girl?! Is my period making me unfit for work?! Then I might as well just get rid of it!
“Muer, you still can’t protect yourself well. You might get taken advantage of,” Kikyo said seriously. “We Zoldycks never do business at a loss.”
Oh, so that’s how it is.
I understand. You’re talking about those explicit settings and scenes described in some dark fanfiction, aren’t you?
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That puts my mind at ease!
“Perform well, little brother,” I patted Illumi’s shoulder with relief, offering my sincerest blessings.
“Drink more hot water, little sister,” Illumi nodded, also offering me his sincerest blessings.
Very good, you’ve grasped the meaning of my “growing up,” but you could choose to shut up. No one would call you mute. Please don’t start by spouting such a classic straight-man comment, ranking number one on the list.
As a memento of this (dark history), I suggest Kikyo take more photos of Illumi in drag, capturing the cutest images of Illumi. Yay!
My suggestion was exactly what Kikyo wanted, or rather, it “poured oil on the fire.” Illumi spent the entire day as a dress-up doll, changing into countless dresses (mine). The photos and videos taken filled five camera memory cards.
As expected of Illumi, he was cooperative throughout, wearing whatever he was told to wear and striking whatever poses he was instructed to strike. He’s truly remarkable, the kind of person who could suddenly announce his engagement to Hisoka in front of the entire Phantom Troupe (LOL). Shyness and other weak emotions are non-existent, which even earned my inexplicable admiration.
You’re really something, Illumi in drag is undeniably cute!
However, this brother is about to become impure on his mission. He’s tainted, can be discarded. Now I need a brand new brother—when will Kalluto be born?
I secretly glanced at Kikyo’s slender waist; her abdomen showed no signs of pregnancy.
Shiba, are you capable? I heard men are at their peak around twenty, and decline significantly after thirty. Nen users have stronger physical abilities than ordinary people, so it should be possible, right? The track record of three children is just average! According to the original setting, you should have at least five more! That would be six children including me!
If you can’t give birth to Kalluto, Illumi will have to inherit the Zoldyck family! Whatever, it doesn’t matter to me who inherits the Zoldyck family. After all, according to the original story’s development, Illumi is unlikely to inherit the Zoldyck family, right? Kalluto has already stated he no longer wants to make money through killing. He wants to be a Hunter and walk the path of righteousness, a protagonist!
In the evening, while organizing the photos of Illumi in drag, Kikyo enthusiastically brought out other albums, saying she wanted to look at some old photos of Shiba with me.
“!” I instantly woke up, tired of looking at Illumi in drag.
If you’re going to show me this, I’m no longer sleepy!
“After understanding everything from the past, it feels like I’ve grown up with my beloved, like childhood sweethearts!” Kikyo declared that she had already memorized Shiba’s albums, including understanding the background stories of each photo and all the past events she could investigate.
Kikyo could look at a photo of Shiba as a baby in his cradle and state his exact weight at the time. She could tell me the number of times Shiba, as a toddler, had fallen. She could tell me his favorite food when he was in a high chair. She could tell me the record for the tallest sandcastle Shiba built when he was playing in the sandbox… etc., etc. You know too much!!! Normal childhood sweethearts, let alone Shiba’s own parents, probably wouldn’t know this much detail!
“…” So scary, a meticulous operational type is so scary.
Since she investigated so thoroughly, Kikyo should know if Shiba had other women in the past or present. But if she doesn’t mention it, I can’t ask. This is a private matter between them as a couple, and I have no right to interfere.
As the album turned to Shiba’s teenage years, with his pointed chin, small face, silver-white hair, and blue cat-like eyes, except for slight differences in his eyebrows and nose, he looked very much like Kalluto. I’m a bit worried that Kalluto will grow up to be a tough guy like Shiba.
No, let’s think about other anime characters with silver hair who are adults. Readers have also speculated that Kalluto might grow up to resemble Gintoki, or Kakashi Hatake, or Satoru Gojo.
Let Kalluto grow up to be a tall and handsome guy like Satoru Gojo! Please, Yoshihiro Togashi!
Flipping further, as the teenage Shiba transitioned into a young man, he grew out his hair, wore a training uniform, and tied it into a neat ponytail. The phenomenon of some male powerhouses in manga preferring to keep their hair long is something I’ve never quite understood. Perhaps such character designs have better recognition? Short hair has limited styling options, while long hair allows for more variety.
It’s likely that Illumi’s future long black hair is influenced by Shiba, making him an undeniable biological son.
Flipping even further, young Shiba sped headlong towards becoming a tough guy, no longer having delicate features, but transforming into a pure tough guy, the kind who could shatter Illumi with a single punch.
“…” What a bloody tale of losing one’s good looks!
Although the character’s combat power seems to have increased significantly, the change in his appearance is too drastic. The contrast is as stark as comparing Sakura Ogami in her middle school and high school years in “Danganronpa.”
In the “real world,” I like to watch male celebrities from country X who are timelessly handsome, slender, melancholic, and possess a slightly dangerous aura, with fair skin. Or neutral-gendered mixed-race male celebrities from country X with soft, alluring beauty. Or exquisitely handsome male celebrities from country X with deep-set eyes, high nose bridges, and features as sculpted as Greek statues.
For any of the above, I don’t need to pick and choose; I can just take them as they are.
Shiba before he lost his good looks fits my comprehensive aesthetic standards: slender, a bit dangerous, with sculpted features and fair skin. It’s a heart-fluttering feeling. I couldn’t help but immerse myself in the lost beauty of Shiba.
“…” Sigh, Shiba, why did you lose your good looks?! Kalluto, you must not resemble your father in the future!
Although I believe that time is a cruel knife, Kikyo prefers men with strength. She seemed less interested in the handsome young version of Shiba, quickly flipping past it and lingering on the chapters featuring the tough guys.
Looking at Shiba now, with his clothes stretched taut by muscles, all I can think is, “Today, I’ll beat you until you know who’s the daddy.jpg.” I feel that this is primarily why I call him “Daddy.” Similarly, if I had the chance to meet Schwarzenegger, I’d probably call him “Daddy” too.
The reason Shiba always wears training clothes is because his overly robust, tough physique makes ordinary clothes either look bad or too tight, hindering his movement.
I get it now, these are the clothing troubles of a tough guy!
“Muer, you should find a good man like Father in the future too!” Kikyo said, still engrossed.
Find a tough guy like Shiba?! Sigh, alright. After looking at Shiba for so long, I’ve gradually become somewhat accepting of tough guy characters.
Let me organize this. The famous tough guys in the original work, Bisky? No, Bisky is a woman.
Uvogin? No, not good looking enough.
Leorio? No, I don’t like characters with squinting eyes; they seem sinister.
Hmm? Who else? Who else is there?! Urahara Kisuke? Oh, no, I’m joking.
Alas, tough guys aren’t really my type, so I don’t pay much attention and know very little. As far as I know, within the realm of tough guys, Shiba seems to be the peak of handsomeness in the original work.
“…” No, apart from King of Lions Shiba, whom I can barely accept, I still can’t accept other tough guys.
“By the way, Muer likes delicate boys,” Kikyo observed my expressions while flipping through the albums. She flipped back to Shiba’s peak attractiveness, his teenage years, and stopped there. “What a shame, it seems it’s too early for Muer to understand the charm of mature men.”
“…” Not too early! I’m already XX years old! No matter the age, I will always like good-looking characters!
“At first, I also liked pretty boys, but…” Kikyo stroked the face of teenage Shiba in the photo. “After all, mature men are more charming.”
“…” Tough guys, huh? That’s a bit too mature!
“It’s a pity, preferences can’t be forced,” Kikyo closed the album and stroked my head. “Whatever kind of boy Muer likes in the future, Mother will support you. If you want to get someone, even if it means blinding yourself or crippling your limbs, I’ll bring them to you.”
“…” No, I don’t play the yandere route!
I shook my head, saying that such things should be consensual and that I don’t want to force anyone.
“Silly child, love requires effort,” Kikyo said.
“…” No, Kikyo, you were just lucky that it was mutual affection; otherwise, it would be a forced-love yandere route.
Since Kikyo mentioned romance, let me organize the prominent characters of a similar age to me in the original work, those who are both highly attractive and powerful, the most famous super popular characters, there are a total of four (ranked in no particular order).
Number one, Illumi, my biological brother, a controlling pervert.
Number two, Hisoka, a pervert famous not only in the original work but throughout the entire manga world.
Number three, Chrollo, a pure-hearted black-hearted bandit leader, the character with the highest rate of problematic fanfiction pairings.
Number four, Pariston, the embodiment of darkness, who takes pleasure in the misfortune of others.
Seriously, searching for a boyfriend in a trash heap?
In terms of looks, it’s the best of times; in terms of character, it’s the worst of times.
“…” Kikyo, you’re so lucky to have found a relatively normal person as a partner. I’m a little jealous.
“Muer, you’re so lucky that you don’t need to compete or strive to win his love,” Kikyo cupped my face. “As long as you ask, he’ll be the first to kill that child for you.”
“You shouldn’t, Muer.” Kikyo smiled with satisfaction. “It’s wonderful that you’ve found someone you like.”
I swallowed with difficulty.
No, it’s not like I *like* him. I’m just a “player,” just watching from the sidelines.
I chose to ask Kikyo when she would have another brother for me, to appease her emotions. Kikyo confidently assured me, “Soon.” If Shiba weren’t out on a mission, I suspect she would be with Shiba now, jointly researching human reproduction, rather than fussing over my preferences.
Ah, what’s the point of talking about romance!
I’ve decided to earn money and hire top-tier male escorts in the future, the idol-level handsome kind, and they need to be good in bed. I’ll buy happiness with money, do whatever I want, use whatever positions I want, and do things I wouldn’t dare to do in the “real world”!
… Good children, don’t learn this!