Chapter 85: Chapter 85
"She’s not dead Alpha" She said and I let out the breath I was holding "But she’s still not stable, I got her on a heart monitor an IV and..." She sighed "It’s not looking good"
"Can I see her?" I said and she nodded. I got out of Lily’s room and followed her. When I reached the door I took a deep breath, trying to prepare myself for what I was about to see and went in.
The twins were on either side of her bed, both of them holding onto one of her hands and murmuring things to her. Jacob was beside her, brushing her damp her with his fingertips and looking pained. Adrian was sitting on a chair wit his elbows on his legs and looking at her like he couldn’t believe this was Lily and Xavier just stood at the the foot of the bed, his eyes puffy and red and filled with pain.
They all turned to me when I came in but I didn’t look at any of them; dread filling my body as I looked at her.
"Come on let’s go guys" Xavier said and they nodded. Every one of them kissed her forehead before leaving the room and closing the door behind them.
The heart monitor was the only sound in the room as I stared at her. A sheet covered her body and her chest rising and falling was the only thing that made me sure she was alive. God, she was so pale. I swallowed the lump in my throat and walked towards her.
I touched her forehead and flinched; guild and fear taking over as I noticed how cold her skin was. This was my fault. This was all my fault
I sat on the chair beside the bed and held her limp hand "Lily" I said my voice hoarse "I’m sorry. I’m so sorry" I took a shaky breath "But you have to be okay" I said "You have to live I..." I gulped "Please, I’ll do anything just...please" I laid my head on my hand that was holding hers
"Ethan" she said breathlessly and my head shot up thinking it was one of those moments when a miracle happens.
"Lily?" I said standing up, her eyes were still closed but I was sure she said my name, I was sure I wasn’t hallucinating.
"Ethan" She said shifting on the bed, she looked pained as she started breathing heavily. It was then I knew she didn’t hear me, she didn’t feel me. She was still unconscious.
"I’m here" I said my hands gently caressing her cheeks "baby I’m here"
She started convulsing, choking like she couldn’t breath and writhing in pain as I tried to hold her, to comfort her.
"Ethan" She called agonized and I felt my heart being torn apart at the sound.
"Damn it Miranda come NOW" I said using every bit of my alpha tone just as Lily let out a shriek of pain.
The door opened and Miranda rushed in "Damn it I thought this wouldn’t happen again" she said "Ethan hold her down before she tears the stitches on her stomach"
I shook my head to clear my thoughts and immediately tried to hold Lily down "It’s okay" I said to her and hen turned to Miranda "What’s happening?"
"Her body was rejecting the drug but it’s still taking it’s toll on her organs, she’s deteriorating. Fast."
Lily let out another scream and I looked at her pained that I can’t help her. I looked around me and noticed the twins were standing in shock. Adrian had both his hands tugging at his hair as he turned around, unable to look and Jacob just had his head in his hands while Xavier helped me hold Lily down.
It all happened in a second, Lily stopped moving and fell back in the bed just as the heart monitor stopped beeping and gave a long, dreadful sound.
"No" I said just but Miranda started shouting for Ren She pushed me away and put both her hands on Lily chest as she started doing compressions to get her heart to start beating again.
"No, no no" I kept chanting as I slumped against the wall so I wouldn’t fall to the floor, cause that’s what I felt was gonna happen. I couldn’t believe it. Lily’s heart....it just....it stopped beating she was....she was...dead "Please no" I prayed "Please god no. please god don’t take her away from me."
Miranda kept doing compressions but nothing was changing. After a while she stopped and looked t me, her face pained and defeated. "She’s gone" she said
"No" I said "NO" I ran and shoved her away and started doing the compressions myself "She’s not gonna die"
"Ethan she’s already-"
"NO" I screamed "She’s not. No,no no" I started doing compressions "You’re not going to die Lily do you hear me?" I said "You’re gonna wake up and you’re gonna kick my ass for being an idiot... and I’m gonna spend everyday trying to make it up to you but you’re not. Going. To. Die."
"Ethan-"
"NO" I screamed, tears forming in my eyes but I blinked them away, this wasn’t a time to cry, I needed to help her, I needed to do this "Come on" I said between clenched teeth "Please baby please you have to live."
"Ethan she’s not-" Miranda started b she shut up when the heart monitor gave changed and started giving a beep, and then another and then another. "oh my god"
"thank god" I said and bent down and planted a kiss on her forehead
"Okay all of you get out I need to check her" she said and rushed everyone out "you too Ethan"
I nodded, hesitant about leaving the room but she nodded to me reassuringly and I nodded, squeezing Lily’s hand before leaving.